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I make this confession, this does not mean Marvel movies are bad in their own right, they're just not my thing. Granted I did like Guardians of The Galaxy but that's beside the point. Why am I bringing this up?

Because of Deadpool! FUCKING DEADPOOL! I fucking loved Deadpool! In this day and age of Marvel movies, Deadpool did something completely different. Tonally, the film is a fucking rollercoaster. It has horrifically gruesome and violent scenes that certainly make it earn its R rating, but it also plays so loose and wacky with its humor to almost Looney Tune levels, but the shift between extreme darkness and extreme cartooniness never feels jarring, it all fits together because the movie never takes itself TOO seriously! The movie is almost like a self-aware parody of Marvel movies that just happens to be set in the X-Men universe, because the movie still utilizes all the Marvel tropes but makes jokes out of them. And Ryan Reynolds? Jesus Christ, Ryan Reynolds was absolutely perfect in this role! He imbues the character with exactly the right level of zaniness and snarkiness that was basically required for Deadpool, and both his physical performance and his line delivery totally compliment the character's humor! You can just tell he is having so much fun with the role. This whole movie is basically like a super gory R rated Bugs Bunny cartoon, to the point where this is probably what The Mask would have been like had it been more faithful to the original comics. With the sheer level of both darkness and wackiness that this movie has to offer in both its over the top action, and its visual gags, this whole movie was right up my alley, and honestly, I really can't wait for the sequel. I really wanna see the sequel and how much looser and wackier it'll play with the jokes and how much further it can take this already out there character. 

And now for the real reason I made this journal. All of you are probably wondering about me and what was basically my announcement of depression (I have no idea if I actually have the disorder or not so I hope I didn't offend anybody with depression). Basically, I felt like I was on creative burnout, I felt a lack of enthusiasm to do anything, especially on deviantArt which itself has been losing my enthusiasm more and more, and I've basically been quietly going nowhere with this account and all other accounts. I just wanna say, I'm not completely out of my funk yet. I'll still talk to my friends but I don't know at the moment if I'll be keeping deviantArt as my main domain to do what I want in terms of art and animation and such. I'm thinking about a different direction to take the things I wanna do, but I don't know just yet, I'll need a long time to think on it, maybe the whole year. But I will say, Deadpool came at just the right time in my life, seeing it in this dark stress induced period put me in a much better mood, it might be the starting point to me getting out of my funk, and is making me think about the better place I might decide to take my life. But we'll just have to wait and see.